Pissed and fucking tired. This won’t make sense, but then again none ever do. Can’t convey anything correctly, such a fuck up.
The promotion was a fucking waste. Got fucked over by previous manager, better pay but same/less hours then before. Can’t quit this until find better job yet all this fucking complaining my motivation is still severly lacking, even though I’m stressing myself more as the days go by.
Continue to push away those close to the breaking point, if not already. I must really enjoy being alone if all my actions are pointing everyone in that direction.
My temper and patience is getting shorter, at this rate I’ll stress myself to an early grave, which I guess isn’t a bad thing at all.
I’m physically, mentally and emotionally close to breaking down again.
Its all my fault, I’m a fucking asshole. Can’t even apologize when I’m wrong to save my fucking life, nulling and voiding any apology I have because it has to get pointed out to me. I get angry when the situation doesn’t even call for it.
I’m not myself anymore, haven’t been myself for years now. Driving everyone away until there’s nothing left. I’m an inconsiderate asshole, with no redeming qualities of any kind.
I’m in such a perfect mental state to go into work right now, maybe I can drown myself in work for next few hours.
Just kill me now God, because I sure as fuck can’t and won’t do it….
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